RANTS

I have finally understood what it feels like now, all this time. I was hiding but now I am finally going to go on, at full force. You got me coming back for more, but I'm not tempted anymore. So goodbye old bev.

I am clear headed now. Very.. and I know what I need right now. I don't know how to do all this but I eventually will. I hope. You had me blinded with your sparkling eyes and for that I have no regrets. Thank you for being your wonderful self.

I dare not to do things that many people do. Maybe thats why I'm different. Hopefully a friend can enlightening me one day, or soon.

But for now, I can't confirm myself. Maybe it's because of all those nonsense thoughts running through my mind every milli-second. But you made me anxious and worried, that's not what anybody can do.

I wish i could sit down with you for a cup of tea and know you better. I can visualise it already, but it's just a vision. Strange eh?

Sometimes I can feel the crush deep inside of me. But all this years had made me immune. Don't ask me why. You can bury me but you can't change the facts.

This is real. Trust me.

Crashing out.


Bev.

" pull me out "